Monday, October 12, 2020

Quick Email Oct. 12th, 2020

 Family and friends,


   October is going by so fast; it's scary! Hehe 

   No one here is decorating much for Halloween so that's a bummer. Hopefully it isn't the same for Christmas. It's bad enough that it doesn't snow here so you would think that the least they could do is throw something artificial out on the front porch. We'll see I guess. Tradition is dying, evidently...

It was a great week, as always! We had our first district council and long story - short - it was long. Oops. We talked about teaching by the Spirit as the discussion was split into four main topics; Being Worthy, To do and To Be, Humility and Priesthood Power, and Love and Harmony. It was a great time and there was lots of participation. We had interviews with President Pingree during it so Sister Pingree sat in on the council which made it more exciting. President ended up participating at the end and Elder Ramirez and I did a role play with him. His name was Kyle and he was a guy with a very stuck perspective. He also had serious concerns with political issues so it was interesting. At the end we decided as a district what we would do better to teach by the Spirit.  And here is the miracle!!!!

Earlier in the council we had one of the Elders give a training on humility and at the end he invited us to become more humble by letting God prevail in our lives. President Pingree was not in the room at the time, as he was doing his interviews. But as we discussed at the end of the council about what we can do better, we decided on becoming more humble by being more willing to have our lessons we prepare be adjusted by the Holy Ghost according to the needs of the people we teach. Also having that principle be visible with anyone we talk to. And then later record how we saw that we are not alone in the work. Anyway, President Pingree then goes on a small rant and somehow ties it in with the other Elder's invitation on letting God prevail as he specifically mentioned the same things the Elder did. Both ideas were connected and we all just had our minds blown. It was an incredible moment.    So that's all for this week!

Take care!
-Elder Markham  

1) Crazy lizard. I've seen every reptile now out in the wild except an Alligator
2) Pet Cemetary!!! :)
3) Snickers the dog. A sweet sentiment in memory of a beloved pet from our family
4) Olive Garden from Sister CarreƱo! Best branch members ever
5) Arepas and Malt from Sister Zambrano
6) Feeding the ducks that always hang out next to the dumpster in our apartment complex
7) Post Zone Conference celebratory pic after an incredible tech presentation!!!
















Increasing Polarization Oct. 5th, 2020

 Family and friends,


   The week of conferences! We had Zone Conference last week as well as General Conference this weekend. 

   Zone Conference was fantastic! We talked about recognizing the Spirit and making prayers more meaningful. Those were the two big ideas. It was exactly what I needed since I have been working on that. Two things I decided to do differently afterwards-- First, ponder about what I should pray for before doing so, and second, do companionship morning prayers. We always close the day with a companionship prayer before bedtime but what are we closing exactly if we never opened it up with a morning prayer? So after we wake up, we have a companionship prayer. That's helped open our eyes to seeing smaller miracles. For example, just last week we were given permission to be able to go inside a home if  we are first invited by a person we are teaching or a member. That opened the opportunity for us to be with a part member family to watch a session of General Conference. If I'm being honest, I would not have seen that much as a miracle but I would have seen it as a nice convenience. So I'm glad that the Lord finds ways to humble me.

   We had a first lesson with a member and her husband. The husband is not a member and he says that he doesn't belong to any religion but he's read a good portion of the Bible. When we talked about commandments, it was incredible because he was able to relate the fact that all commandments point to the first and greatest one which is to love God first. It was amazing that he got that on his own and we felt it was the workings of the Spirit. We really hope that we get another opportunity to talk with him again. He is on call working at the hospital for the next couple of weeks so he won't be available for a while.

   I hope you were all able to take some personal things from Conference! I certainly did and I will probably take more when I go back to read the talks. The Conference was wonderful and humble. No big changes or huge adjustments, just messages of hope and reassurance as well as warning. The gospel is a gospel of hope and warning. It's often difficult to live in a world that is becoming further distant from the virtues, values, and standards of Heavenly Father. And it's even more difficult when we don't keep the commandments. I want to make a special mention of Elder Bednar's talk. https://youtu.be/-UUJqQCK7QM
 He mentions how increasing polarization is becoming more and more evident. We are arriving at a point where having one foot in the water will not do. We've heard it said that we cannot serve God and mammon. That is as true today as it was when it was written. The longer time goes on, the more we can see the gray area fading. The casual one day a week worship is beginning to fail. We need to continue the at home gospel learning. As was spoken, over these last several months we've been tried, proven, and examined. At the beginning of all this, Elder Oaks https://youtu.be/fiMCvmenrdQ  even said how the Second Coming was not yet happening, but this was more of a test run to see just how prepared we are. I think of it in a sense as when Jesus comes again, will we think, "He is finally here!" Or would we be in shock that we didn't actually think it would happen? The Savior will come again whether we believe it or not. Elder Christofferson https://youtu.be/KS3iK9mr40M  has taught this principle well when he talked about mankind being free to choose. He said how consequences or many following events are not affected by someone's actions, as in the Second Coming will occur whether we believe it or not and whether we are prepared or not. Jesus Himself said that it will be at a time when no one would be expecting it. Alma taught that now is the time to prepare to meet God. Not tomorrow or next week or next year. The question is, how do we prepare? First, you need faith. You need faith in Jesus Christ and not only believe in Him, but also believe what He says. The follow up question- Do you believe in Him? Yes. But do you believe Him? He says He is the life of the world. He says He suffered and descended below all. He says He can make your burdens light. He says His word is sharper than a two edged sword to the dividing asunder. He says ye need not fear. He says ye need not fear again. He says that all things will be made right at the last day. He says the voice of His prophets is the voice of Himself. He said, "Wherefore, I the Lord, knowing the calamity which should come upon the inhabitants of the earth, called upon my servant Joseph Smith, Jun., and spake unto him from heaven, and gave him commandments." Those two of believing in Jesus Christ and believing Jesus Christ are inseparable. Obedience is of course the first law of heaven and to act on our faith we obey so it grows. That is faith, not that we have a perfect knowledge, but that we hope and are willing to act. If I remember correctly, Elder Johnson talked about his experience of their microwave catching on fire. https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2020/10/56johnson?lang=eng  His daughter, not realizing it, turned the microwave on and set it at 30 minutes. Because there was nothing inside to absorb the heat and energy, the microwave lit itself on fire. Elder Johnson likened this to faith. We need faith to burn because when we walk through life, going through metaphorical furnaces of trials and afflictions, we will need something to burn. Otherwise it will be us who will burn to spiritual death. The faith is what absorbs the trials and afflictions. How many of us have seen many fall away in life because of trials where they lacked faith? Or even in these last several months? It's sad to see it happen. It's heartbreaking. And it's not going to get easier. In fact, Elder Uchtdorf  https://youtu.be/-3qVFFGPX8M just said in this Conference that things might get harder before they get easier. Back to the point Elder Bednar made about increasing polarization, that ties in with many other things mentioned in Conference. Including Elder Anderson's  https://youtu.be/UAf8B9X51WE sermon of how we should speak more of the Savior. As the world continues to fall away in its fallen state, people are finding it more and more awkward to talk about the Savior as we do. They are going further down the path about how religion is old and just weird. Funny thing- Paul said we would be a peculiar people. And Nephi said that in our day, we would be small in number compared to the rest of the world. That makes it pretty weird or awkward to the world if you ask me. If today isn't a prophecy fulfilled then I guess I'm not sure what is haha. I hope we take these invitations from General Conference seriously and not roll eyes at something that we think might be ridiculous or said too harshly. One very sad thing is that even members of the Church will begin to deny the faith. Maybe not through words directly but in the form of actions. Little by little, some will participate in not so great things. Things that we are encouraged to stay away from and avoid. Even if it's small and seems insignificant. We learned directly from Elder Soares https://youtu.be/S3YmruFk_b4  that this is how the adversary works into our lives. It begins with impure thoughts or small actions that lead to something more severe. We're not expected to be perfect now. But we are asked to give an effort. As things become more yes and no, I hope we all strive to stay good examples! Talk more of Christ. Recognize Him more as the world recognizes Him less. Elder Oaks https://youtu.be/fiMCvmenrdQ  laid down a pretty impressive talk by claiming and clarifying again the standard of the church in dealing with worldly cruelty. I was thoroughly pleased and impressed. With his correction and claims, we can have confidence in talking more of Christ. But above all, remember charity and treat others as the precious souls of God they ought to be treated. Brigham Young once said that even the lowliest and least person in the earth is still worth worlds. I think for me, the most touching and heartwarming talk was given by Sister Craig https://youtu.be/nEHfIgZgpM8  when she spoke of the experience at the store. Those small and simple things are often what means the most. If there was just one thing you could do, it would be to love. I'll end here with part of Elder Holland's talk, Be Ye Therefore Perfect- Eventually. This talk is by far one of my favorites. Please, when you find time, watch or listen to the full talk. It's absolutely necessary to hear Elder Holland's voice. https://youtu.be/3DVpRFRFKME

Leo Tolstoy wrote once of a priest who was criticized by one of his congregants for not living as resolutely as he should, the critic concluding that the principles the erring preacher taught must therefore also be erroneous.

In response to that criticism, the priest says: “Look at my life now and compare it to my former life. You will see that I am trying to live out the truth I proclaim.” Unable to live up to the high ideals he taught, the priest admits he has failed. But he cries:

“Attack me, [if you wish,] I do this myself, but [don’t] attack … the path I follow. … If I know the way home [but] am walking along it drunkenly, is it any less the right way simply because I am staggering from side to side?

“… Do not gleefully shout, ‘Look at him! … There he is crawling into a bog!’ No, do not gloat, but give … your help [to anyone trying to walk the road back to God.]”


I love you all! 

-Elder Markham

Great Week! Sept. 28th, 2020

 Family and friends,


   That was fast. I'm already back emailing this week! 

   Transfers were pretty crazy. It got delayed with some problems but on the bright side, I am now with my new companion, Elder Ramirez!!! He is awesome! I honestly think he is the most humble and kind missionary there is. He is willing to do whatever is asked of him. He is from California but he was originally born in El Salvador. His family moved here when he wasn't even one yet. He doesn't speak Spanish but he can understand it really well! Even better than I can sometimes. He is working hard to learn. He has been on the mission just about four months and this is his first area assigned to Spanish. He enjoys film and video and actually before the mission he played as an extra in T.V. shows. He's been able to meet lots of other actors. I'm excited to have more time with him, it's already been so great! 

   This last week was full of new things! We started teaching this guy who's wife is a member. We were invited by her to have a lesson with them and she asked us to talk about how keeping commandments brings blessings. It went so well! They want us to return this week on Friday so we are looking forward to that. It is in person but we do it in their backyard on their patio. We were happy to hear from his wife yesterday that he enjoyed the Sacrament meeting call with the branch so that was great! We've been preparing and setting things up for the other people we teach to watch General Conference this weekend. A father of a part member family actually invited us and some others in the branch to a BBQ to watch Conference at his home. We will need to see if that will be allowed since we would watch inside. Hopefully it gets an okay from President Pingree! Last Saturday we helped a family in our branch move and two of the people we are teaching showed up to help. What a blessing that was! They both enjoyed it. Yesterday we had our leadership training with President Pingree about conducting baptismal interviews, exchanges, and district councils. I enjoyed it and learned lots! And this week is a double conference with our zone conference and General Conference!!! I'm so excited!!! It was a busy week with late nights and early mornings. Speaking of early morning, we got to teach seminary last Friday!!! That was a highlight. We spoke about the Stripling Warriors and it seemed like all of the kids enjoyed it! We got a set of missionaries again in our branch and we are excited for that so we can balance out other things! They are the tech Sister missionaries for the mission so they will be a huge help with giving slide presentations to the branch about how to use technology. It was a bit of a pain splitting areas again over area book. We were told Salt Lake was having technical difficulties so that delayed us getting everything we need. But we're at least glad it's getting sorted out!  

   I hope you all had a great week! Take care!

-Elder Markham

1) Elder Ramirez and I
2) Saturday's move with the Branch!
3) Sad last day with Elder Enz







Transfers Sept. 22, 2020

 Family and friends,


Sorry but this email needs to be a bit quick!! 

We are having transfers tomorrow so we still need to get more prepared for that haha. We have 26 new missionaries coming in and only four are going home... The mission size isn't exactly an ideal fit for the number of missionaries but we always love getting more! 

Elder Enz is leaving me tomorrow which is sad. He is headed to Miami to be a zone leader and I will stay here and inherit the district as the district leader. My new companion will be Elder Ramirez and I am very excited to meet him! It sounds like he hasn't been on the mission for very long yet. But I'm looking forward to serving with him! I'm still trying to get things figured out with what areas will be in the district and zone. It's confusing since we added three new zones to the mission and I think they are all around here in the Fort Lauderdale area. Yikes! More details to follow for next week :) 

We've been more involved with teaching part member families so it's been exciting! We had a small BBQ with one of them last Saturday. I'll send a picture!

Well I hope you all have a great week!!!

Take care!
-Elder Markham



New Things! Sept. 14th, 2020

 Family and friends,


   It sounds like the west is having lots of issues with fires and I am really sad to hear that! I hope that all my Oregon family and friends are staying safe!   

   Another great week gone by!! There were a few more exciting things that I will try to mention. First, we received great news that our area president, Elder Martino, is going to do a mission-wide video call with us this next Sunday! I'm pretty excited for that. President Pingree said that he invited him when they were accounting and he said he would love to talk to us! We were all able to get questions sent in that he will answer for us. Since the seasons don't change here, I decided to get some fall decor. So we have a new center piece! I'll send a photo of it. Mom would be really proud of me for picking it out :) Last week we also did exchanges. My first was with one of our zone leaders and it was a great day! We were able to set up a few lessons after receiving referrals. Some of them are with families and that will be very exciting! Then later in the week I had exchanges with the other elders in our district. They are actually the ones who assist the housing and vehicle coordinator. We are down on senior couple missionaries so there is lots to do with those two elders running around the mission and getting housing appliances fixed along with stuff for cars. So the day that I went on exchanges with one of them was quite the adventure! First we had to drop the pickup off at an auto shop to get it fixed. And in the meantime we went with the president's assistants to make a few trips and get some things done. After that we had to go back and get the truck and pick up lunch. We had to eat quickly and then we went to IKEA to get some shelving and dressers for other houses in the mission. We are going to have over 300 missionaries by December!! So we had to go to IKEA with some other missionaries to have them pick out the shelving they needed. After that we went to Walmart to grab some chairs and then we went to get that shelving unit installed that we picked up. Anyway, it was a crazy day with lots of in-between stuff. It was fun though!! We received news that we might be able to do in person church meetings soon! It sounds like the maximum they will allow is 50 people. Our branch is about that size anyway so it shouldn't be much of a problem having them all there haha. And yesterday was especially great because we got to watch the live face to face with Elder and Sister Rasband! I loved it!!! We watched it as two combined districts so it was a great way to end the sabbath! I encourage you to see it if you haven't yet!!   https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/broadcasts/face-to-face/rasband-restoration?lang=eng

   There were some great things that I took from the session with Elder and Sister Rasband. The theme of it was the first vision/ restoration. One thought I had recently was about Joseph Smith and his process he went through while establishing the Lord's church again here on earth. Elder Rasband answered some questions about testimonies and that reminded me of the process of Joseph Smith receiving his testimony. I thought of how important it is to note how his attitude and testimony shifted over time. When he began his search for truth, he was so lost and curious about what church he felt like he should join. He claimed that he was seemingly lenient toward one denomination but it wasn't satisfying enough. He was struggling with these decisions while he came across the famous verse from James. He said that had such an impact on him, even more than he felt could come upon any other person reading the Bible. So he took the council and did, in fact, ask of God for a greater understanding and wisdom. When he did, God the Father and His Son, Jesus Christ, appeared to him in the sacred grove. He received the unanticipated response that none of the churches had the correct doctrine. Keep in mind, up to this point Joseph Smith was 14 years old which is still young enough to be fairly influenced by ministers and other adults that obviously had much more experience than he did with religion. Yet, he was steadfast in his testimony that he received. He said that even as a boy, he would not deny the new found faith and testimony he received. He was told to forget those foolish things and that they were fake. Joseph did not make up the first vision. As young and as confused as he was before the first vision, it would not be logical with him being so interested in religion to make something up and be so set on this idea without a fraction of a doubt that he was right and that he saw Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. Just as the Lord promises us, He had that same promise for Joseph. That promise comes from Helaman 5:12 which is council given to the sons of Helaman from long ago. Its idea is that if we maintain a testimony built upon a foundation of Christ, we will not fall and we will not be knocked over. Joseph was a living example of that. His foundation was of the correct doctrine of Christ, that it gave him a strong foundation that even as a boy he could not be shaken. Joseph Smith is the epitome of that example. He went from an unlearned farm boy to perhaps one of the most intelligent people to ever walk the earth. He didn't write the Book of Mormon. He translated it by the power of God. Add all the scripture together that he ever translated and wrote. Read that and you will see the power of God manifested in Joseph Smith. Between his Bible translations, the production of the Book of Mormon, the Doctrine and Covenants, and all his discourses, you cannot deny the hand of God in that work. Never once did he deny the existence of God, or did he ever take any revelation back that was given from God. Gaining a testimony and building on it is a process. It takes effort. In the face to face with Elder and Sister Rasband, Sister Rasband answered a question about why it's often difficult to hear the whisperings of the Holy Ghost telling you the church is true. She answered that it's because something so great does not come so easy. If all we do is put in one hour of effort to read the scriptures and pray, it most likely won't be enough. It needs to be a day to day pattern. It needs to be lengthy. You need to live what you learn from the scriptures. More light is given from grace to grace as we learn then live. Elder Kelbingat has mentioned that the Lord is not as concerned with what happens during your studies as He is with what happens as a result of them. That is true. Live by the truth you learn and act in faith to receive more. Be humble enough to accept the idea that we may not understand everything right now. Elder Rasband said the other night that we often need to put questions on a shelf to save for another time. It's also important to not let your testimony hinge on a question regarding something that isn't as important. Let the hinge be on the Savior. The purpose of the Book of Mormon is to convince us that Jesus is the Christ, as stated in the introduction. If we can conclude that the Book of Mormon is true and inspired from God, then we can conclude that Joseph Smith was in fact a prophet of Him who inspired the book. That would mean that the proper authority to delegate and lead in the Lord's church has been passed down from Joseph Smith to president Nelson. All the keys were given to the apostles during the time of Joseph Smith. They therefore maintained that authority to receive revelation on who to appoint as the new president of the church. This pattern has been repeated these last couple hundred years. If we then have a testimony that this is the Lord's church and He is at the head of it, then we can know that all revelation received to the leaders is inspired from God. Joseph Smith is an example that is very needed today. There is more to come and we will all need strong testimonies to survive! Revelation continues in the church today. To say that isn't true is the same as saying that God does not answer prayers nor gives knowledge to us. But He does answer prayers and He does help us. I have a testimony that Jesus Christ is our Savior and Redeemer. I am glad that I can be forgiven by Him. I would be so lost without that forgiveness. I know that I am far from perfect, but I will keep trying. 

I love you all!! Stay safe!! 
-Elder Markham




Tuesday, September 8, 2020

Fall? September 7, 2020

 Family and friends,


   Well it's been a while! The last few pdays I've just not had much time! But I'm glad that I can get an email out now haha. 

   And wow, it's already getting into Fall?! I was in Mexico almost six months ago which is approaching the time that I spent there. General Conference is less than a month away! Where does the time go? A lot has happened since I last wrote and I'm not sure if I can fit everything in! We've had some baptisms, two of them being by the branch. We are talking to more people! We have been able to visit other places. The temple is in our area and I still don't have any pictures from there!! Last week the APs (Assistants to the Mission President) took us to a GNC to get an InBody scan which was fun! We have been able to eat some great food like ribs, different kinds of potatoes, steak, different rice, and lots of Latin American dishes! The housing coordinator gave us a surprise inspection last week while we were out and he and his wife ended up buying Cafe Rio for us since they concluded that our house was the cleanest and neatest they've ever seen on the mission! On top of that, I was dubbed with having the best made bed in the mission! It's been great being able to still serve on a Spanish assignment and still get some of that Mexican culture. Yesterday we taught the adults' Come, Follow Me lesson and that was so fun! We used a powerpoint that another sister made. She thought she wasn't going to be able to do the lesson so she asked us to do it. We had a touching experience with one of our investigators the other night. He joined us for a Book of Mormon read with the branch president's family and we read the conversion story of King Lamoni's father. He really enjoyed it and he was able to notice key principles! Afterwards he cried while saying the prayer. Then later he texted us apologizing and said that it was because he felt so good about the sacrifice missionaries make to serve, doing it all for Jesus and the people. That was sweet and very touching especially since it came from an investigator. We took that moment to briefly explain the power of the Spirit of God. I couldn't help tearing up myself. That reminded me of the scripture, Matthew 19:29 which reads, "And every one that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name's sake, shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life." I'm receiving part of that hundredfold while I'm out here. I love the mission! Many say that it is the mission that changes the elder or sister. But in reality, it's the Lord's atonement that changes them. The mission happens to be one of His tools that He uses. But I learn things here that I never would have without serving. The opportunity cost of going out is nothing compared to what Heavenly Father has in store. That everlasting life spoken of in the New Testament is something beyond our comprehension. Imagine what makes you the happiest. Most would rightly think of their family. Now the blessings that Heavenly Father will give to those who correctly covenant with Him and keep those covenants, are heirs to all that He has. That is something greater than we could imagine. Because of our mortal and imperfect state, we cannot comprehend all that our Heavenly Father can comprehend. It is as if mortality itself is the veil. We learn, we struggle, we fight, we wait, we cry, we rejoice, and we progress. That is mortality. There are lots of people that have these great spiritual experiences that act as a pivot in their progression, and that is always so wonderful! But the Spirit speaks in a still small voice. So don't ever be too distracted looking for great experiences when the Spirit is trying to speak to you with little ones. We learn precept upon precept, here a little and there a little. In the end, when every experience is collected into one, it is our mortality that is the pivot in our eternal progression. 

  Last week I was asked, with other reassigned missionaries, to send in a letter explaining our story of being reassigned. Our mission president asked us to write the miracles we saw. He wants to put it into the mission history. I thought it appropriate to share it here as well! So this is it...

    My original assignment was to Mexico City, Mexico. I had been serving for just over seven months. I was just about a week into my third area. It was going so well! During the previous week, we had found nine new people to teach! My companion and I were in a cybercafe the following Monday, reporting on the missionary portal. We had a quick question for our district leader who we then called. Almost immediately he asked why we were not at home. Confused, we responded that we had to report for the previous week. Knowing that we were probably unaware, our district leader told us that the mission was being placed under quarantine due to the global pandemic of COVID-19. That stopped our heartbeats for a minute. We finished what we needed to get done and headed for home. Eventually catching our breath from the shock, we spoke with our neighbor who was an older sister from our ward. We told her the news and she did not act surprised. She told us that all missionaries world-wide were being sent to their home countries. I wasn’t quite prepared for that news. However, we tried to stay skeptical of that thought since we had not received word from any mission leader. But our district leader told us on the call that our mission president would be reaching out to us later that day. So I was still on edge. 

Mortality is a place to learn and grow amongst opposition. But as long as we plant ourselves with a strong foundation in Christ, we cannot be tossed to and fro. Having grown up with the gospel and given a strong foundation in Christ, I never had any such doubt that the Lord knew where I was nor did I ever doubt that He directs His work. All the preparedness that I learned from my parents, other family members, and church leaders allowed me to stay under control without fear of what might happen next. That was the first blessing among many that would follow. One of the thoughts that quickly came to mind was Elder Bednar’s talk, Called to the Work. My companion and I sat down at our study table as I opened to the Ensign that contained Elder Bednar’s incredible sermon. I read the talk allowed without lifting my eyes off the page. As I read some of his last words, “To be engaged in their service (Heavenly Father’s and Jesus Christ’s)  is one of the greatest blessings we can ever receive.” I looked up to see my companion’s eyes filled with tears. He then nodded in confirmation that everything will be alright. Some long hours followed as we waited patiently for our mission president’s call. The telephone then rang and we answered in the best attitudes we could mustar. It was then confirmed that we would be sent home sometime soon. Our mission president and his wife expressed their love for us which was comforting. I was never worried about what would happen next. I was only concerned with what I was leaving behind. The five days that followed were full of joy and tender mercies from the Lord such as the sweet Spirit we felt each night while singing hymns. After those five days passed, I found out that I would be flying out the following morning. I packed up and said goodbye to anyone I could at the time. I went home relatively early compared to the rest of the missionaries in the mission. Another nice blessing was being able to return home with my companion from the Mexico City MTC. He was also from Oregon and lived less than an hour from me so I had that sweet blessing of having him as a traveling companion. We arrived at the Portland Airport later that evening. My parents were there to greet me, and what a grand experience that was which I get to have another time! The airports were empty and that made it easy to retrieve luggage. The roads were also quite clear so it was a faster drive home. We ate burgers along the way back which was satisfying since I felt like it had been forever since I had one! We arrived at home where I was able to see most of my family! After conversation exchanges were settled for the time being, I took luggage upstairs to get unpacked. It was then that the true reality of what was going on really started to set in. After seven months of serving, I was home. My luggage was sitting on the bed that I thought I wouldn’t see again until after two years. I had no idea what was next. I knew, however, that I was going to be able to go back out. I didn’t know when, but I knew I was going to be able to. I was just doing what I was told. I had no problem with that. In fact, I had no problem with anything that was happening. I was blessed with enough experiences to allow me not to get worried when things were out of my control. I was told in a blessing that my mission president gave to me the hours prior to departing for home that my labors had been sufficient in the eyes of the Lord. That was comforting enough. I knew that I had to take everything one at a time in order to process what the Lord had for me next. All of these thoughts ran around in my head in this moment I was taking in the reality of what was going on. Yet, I was at peace. A few days later, I was with my family on a walk down our road. My dad caught up after finishing some work and he then told me the new situation for reassigned missionaries about waiting or going right back out. I made my decision and asked Heavenly Father if it was the right one. I had to consider many different things such as my deferment for BYU where I planned on attending after the mission, the people back in Mexico City, and possibly working instead of going back out right away. These were just a few thoughts that I was considering. But the thought that was most important and which occupied my mind more often was about the people the Lord was preparing for me to come in contact with. After contemplating these things for just a short time, I felt the need to be decisive and quick so I wouldn’t delay any further organization that would be needed. After thinking this over, I knelt in prayer and felt the confirmation that going back out as soon as possible would be best. I felt the peace that I had recognized before. It was from the Holy Ghost. With that confidence, I was soon reassigned to the Florida Fort Lauderdale Mission. During that time at home, I was able to receive such a warm welcome back from my ward and other friends. My mom set up an event where all the people stayed in their cars as I walked through the church parking lot waving. I did not know about it before it happened which made that extra special. And what a wonderful blessing it was to be with my family for three months. I was able to watch General Conference with them, we celebrated my mom’s birthday, and all of my siblings who lived elsewhere were able to visit home and we were together again in full. Although I had many more blessings in that duration of time, I believe that probably the greatest blessing that I received, as well as my family, due to serving was the final adoption of my two youngest brothers. For over 16 years (about half of my parents’ married life), my mom and dad had battled a long and stressful course as they did their best to complete the adoption of four children. The first two were cleared to be adopted about ten years ago and they were later sealed to us by our Grandfather who has that authority to seal families together. Now, my family will soon be able to participate in the sealing of my two youngest brothers, hopefully again by our Grandpa. 

I do not think that I can say that I have ever had a very difficult trial. Perhaps that is because I enjoy counting my blessings more than counting difficulties. I realize that recent events have struck people in very different ways. I am thankful to be able to serve during this time to help those who are struggling more than I am. I do not think life is easy, but I do believe Jesus Christ when He said that He would ease our burdens and make them light. I can testify that He does do that. I am aware that I have been given much. And I feel it in my heart that because I have been given much, I too must give. I made it to the Florida Fort Lauderdale Mission safely and quickly without problem. In fact, one of the last blessings I received while traveling was that my bag was well overweight but they still allowed it to be transported. So here I am on the mission enjoying every moment! I love it! After everything that has happened or will happen, I see reason to stand before the Lord and sincerely say, “I am happy.”


-Elder Markham


I will get some pictures sent out a bit later! I know I haven't done that in a while haha. I love you all! Have a wonderful week!











Tuesday, August 4, 2020

Purpose! August 3, 2020

Family and friends,

   To start off, it was an exciting week! Things aren't ever too eventful but this last week was a little out of the ordinary. We have been involved with creating new videos and coming up with new ideas and that's been lots of fun! One thing we did was an idea from the Come, Follow Me. We used an egg, potato, and pot of boiling water. The boiling water represents our trials in life and the egg and potato represent our hearts. We then set the egg and potato in the pot and later demonstrate how the egg becomes hard and the potato becomes soft. So the question is, do we soften or harden our hearts because of our trials? We think it went well! We are doing some video editing and we will hopefully get the post out soon. 

   The craziest event we had was a hurricane warning! Evidently it never showed up. It was going up and down between a tropical storm and a category one hurricane. So it was never too serious. The track was supposed to come up through the coast of Florida but we prayed and it took a different course straight north. The Lord hears prayers! 

   That's about all the update for now! Lately, we've been encouraged to share more testimonies and share about why we are serving a mission. So I would like to share some of those things! First, I really do love being out here! It's been a great experience. I've spent time in two different missions with three different mission presidents. I've met so many wonderful people from all over the world- missionaries and nonmembers alike. I've heard stories and other experiences that are touching, challenging, and exciting! One missionary I met has managed to serve with six different mission presidents!! Other missionaries I've met have many other skills and abilities. A couple other elders in my zone speak about five different languages. It is amazing to see the lengths these people have gone to in order to fulfill the missionary purpose which is to invite others to come unto Christ! Wherever we are, or however we do it, that is the reason we serve. And along the way, we get many opportunities to learn of and from others. The Lord places us perfectly so that we gain experiences necessary for our mortal and, ultimately, our eternal progression. And what a blessing it has been for me to realize the great worth of God's children as I meet and talk with them along the course of not just a mission but life as well. Each member, missionary, or other person I talk to seems to have one trial or another that has helped them carry on. Those trials seem to also help them recognize their own worth in the eyes of our Heavenly Father. Among the variety of different experiences, each person seems to have a common theme regarding what they come to know best. And that is that they know Heavenly Father loves them and that they are His son or daughter. Imagine that, being the spiritual offspring of God Himself. The point to that is, we each have a purpose. Everything that our Father in Heaven and Savior do is full of purpose. Our Heavenly Father sees us individually. He knows us by name. And because our God is a God of purpose, He created you and I with a purpose. He knows the individual long before He creates them. We don't simply just fill in a role but we possess the God-given potential to become like our Heavenly Father! And so, why only 18 months to three years? What is the point of that? Especially if it seems like nothing is going anywhere? Why do people leave things behind that seem like it would benefit them more than a mission? The answer is in the call. I have heard that the call letter has been slightly modified, but here is part of what it says from what I have, "The Lord will reward you for the goodness of your life. Greater blessings and more happiness than you have yet experienced await you as you humbly and prayerfully serve the Lord in this labor of love among His children." Is that not something that would benefit any missionary, even more than anything else they can do at that moment of their life? Prophets tell us that the most important work of anything is missionary work and genealogy work. Therefore, serving the mission is what is most important regardless of limitations. This is not the first time that life has seemingly come to a halt. It is a commandment that the gospel is to be preached throughout the world to all that would hear it. But sometimes we are limited because of things outside of our control. Nevertheless, Nephi says, "...for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them." (1 Nephi 3:7) We have a way that the Lord has provided. And that is technology! Often, others use their agency to stop progression as well. Through the Church's history, it has been ridiculed, criticized, cast out, persecuted, and beaten. Why would the Lord allow the delay of His work if He commands it? He first revealed the answer to Alma the younger. Alma tells Amulek by saying, "...for behold the Lord receiveth them up unto himself, in glory; and he doth suffer that they may do this thing, or that the people may do this thing unto them, according to the hardness of their hearts, that the judgments which he shall exercise upon them in his wrath may be just." (Alma 14:11) Many generations later, Joseph Smith received a similar answer. The Lord told him, "Verily, verily, I say unto you, that when I give a commandment to any of the sons of men to do a work unto my name, and those sons of men go with all their might and with all they have to perform that work, and cease not their diligence, and their enemies come upon them and hinder them from performing that work, behold, it behooveth me to require that work no more at the hands of those sons of men, but to accept of their offerings." (D&C 124:49) And yet, the situation is a bit different right now with what is going on. So as missionaries, we are asked to give all we can with what we have. Even if no one is baptized, there are still many who are hearing the gospel. Elder Klebingat gave a wonderful missionary devotional some weeks ago and he gets into a lot about why we do missionary work. He mentions how missionaries are called of God and that His prophets and apostles exercise the proper keys of the priesthood to call men and women to serve missions. And because they have the proper keys to call missionaries by inspiration, they also have the proper keys to release missionaries. That authority/duty is delegated to the stake presidents of the missionaries who then release the missionaries. With that being said, the missionaries do not have the authority to release themselves. Which means they do not receive revelation to go home. We as missionaries do not possess the authority to determine if the mission is pointless. If we are called by God to serve then it is a call of purpose and authority, regardless of the circumstance. Again, Heavenly Father is a God of purpose. Nothing is done on a whim. I just love that idea because with that confidence, any missionary can complete anything the Lord needs them to do! It is also important to remember that little progress is still progress. Little by little, we become closer to Heavenly Father. I also admire that analogy of just a drop in the ocean. Our labors often seem to be only a drop in the ocean in comparison. But without those labors, the ocean would be without one more drop. It is very sad if you think about it. But to help just one more person come unto Christ means that Heavenly Father has one more of His numberless children back with him.

   I want to leave this testimony here, that there is a purpose to be a missionary at this time! We are called for a reason. Jesus Christ is the Chief cornerstone of His church. He leads it as the head. And He will continue to lead it now just as in times of old! I love serving and being out here even on days that are more difficult than others. No matter what happens, the Lord's church will always be the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Take Care!
-Elder Markham 


Monday, July 20, 2020

What a Blessing! July, 20th, 2020

Family and friends,

   I see that my Mom sent me photos of my family getting into my slides AFTER I put them away. What's up with that?

   This last week was very interesting. Starting back at last pday- as soon as we got back home around 2 o'clock, we were notified to get on an emergency video call with our zone. We did and elder Cannon (our mission doctor) advised us to stay in our houses for a week. We were told not to go outside, with no exceptions besides going to the chapel and sitting out in our cars to get wifi. It turns out, the previous week before we got the call, there were some missionaries in our zone that went to a member's house. About a week later, they found out that he had the virus. So those missionaries we exposed to the virus. My companion and I did not go to that but we live with two other elders who did. So we also had to stay locked up as well. Also, there is this thing going around about how we are encouraged to share any miracles, big or small, in our group texts with our zones during this lock-in. And I almost lost it after elder Merrill (one of the elders in our house) made the comment of how we should share the miracle of the Lord finding a way to humble us yet again. Elder Merrill is one of the most innocent/reserved people I know. The really sad thing is, that member who had the virus ended up passing away because of it. We've been hearing a lot about that lately. There have been a few members in our branch who have caught the virus without serious harm. Regardless, we continue to pray! 

   I'm still feeling great! I have not been sick yet and neither of the other elders in the house got sick this last week. There have been a couple missionaries in our mission who have gotten the virus. We also found out last night that one of the APs (Assistant to the President....a missionary in charge of all the other missionaries who assists day to day assignments for the Mission President) got the virus, but the other tested negative which was odd. 

   Nothing too exciting happened this last week but we are brainstorming new ideas for videos to make on Facebook! So stay tuned! Anna is progressing well and we are still holding off on putting a baptism date down for her. We don't feel it's time yet. But she picks up on all the lessons well and she has been able to attend some video meetings with the branch! Elder Enz and I have also begun doing Tuesday night calls with the branch to do a bit out of the Come, Follow Me. We also do that separately each day with the families that feed us. It has been very wonderful! The Silver Lakes branch is incredible! Another thing we have been doing to contact is singing! We go through the area book and make calls accordingly, but instead of introducing ourselves we just start singing a hymn. It has been going well and one of the potential investigators actually attended the branch call yesterday! We had two other investigators attend too which was awesome! We're making great progress!!! 

   I haven't spoken much about food... I'm sorry for that! To make it up, I'll talk a bit about what we've been cooking lately! One of my favorites was the bass we made! First, it took like six hours to thaw, then I soaked it in milk to get that swampy taste out, then I rubbed butter on it, then I fried it in garlic and creole seasoning, then I topped it off with pure sea salt, basil, and Carolina BBQ sauce. It was absolutely terrific!! I did that same process with chicken breast, minus soaking it in milk. My Dad would be so proud of me. I've also cooked some great spaghetti! Apparently lemon pepper goes well with it! I've even been able to turn ramen into something more exciting! Along with its flavor, I throw in some butter, basil, and creole! My companion really likes to make veggie stir fry which is also incredible! So that's some of the things we've been able to do with food.

   Last night we had a devotional as a mission and it was very impactful. President and sister Pingree shared a recording of some of the training they received from president Nelson a couple weeks ago. He shared the importance of the restoration and the position that Joseph Smith held, beginning as a young boy! President Nelson spoke for over 20 min about different experiences that Joseph had to help him become the prophet of the restoration. He talked about how Joseph was tutored by about 60 different angles over the course of his life. All being Adam down to our own time. President Nelson wanted to emphasize the importance of this year and the first vision. The adversary is doing a lot to distract others from the significance of this year. But as we search for ways to make it more meaningful, I know that we will receive blessing upon blessing from the Lord and our testimonies can be strengthened! There is always a strong spirit felt when listening to a prophet testify of another prophet. You can feel the connection that runs from Joseph Smith to president Nelson. This is my testimony, that we have prophets today that lead and guide us in the direction that the Lord would have us follow. I love being a missionary! It is an experience that I will forever look back on. Every minute of every day will be a moment I appreciate as I move on throughout my life. I love our Father in Heaven, and I love our Savior. That would be the most prominent thing I would want others to understand about me, that I love and appreciate them more than anything. In the sacred name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Take care!
-Elder Markham        

Saturday, July 18, 2020

Monday Already?!?! July 13, 2020

Family and friends,

Time goes by too fast!

   Another great week came and went! There was one very sad thing that happened though. Shortly after we moved into our new house, we met our neighbors. They are so wonderful! We talked to Amos, Kevin, and Rosanne. Each of them are at least 55 years old. They have all been good neighbor friends for many years. We talked with them for about a half hour after our first day. They've had other missionaries come and go over the years and they enjoy their company. So it's easy to sense a special bond with them. They had so many good things to say about all the previous missionaries. We learned a lot about them and their families. And they shared lots of very personal things. That's just because they feel close to the missionaries and they know that we are here to listen and encourage them. But one night after coming back from being at the chapel all day, we found out that Rosanne passed away that previous night. She had many health issues but it was devastating and shocking to find that out. Amos was getting worried that she hadn't responded to any of his messages and he hadn't seen her in a while. So he checked on her and he was the one who found out. It's been very sad for a while. Kevin cried a lot when he found out. Amos enjoys talking it out with us. They are getting by. We made dinner for them the other night and they were very happy to get that.

   On a happier note, we did get two new investigators this last week! Elias (shout out to Garrett because that's his middle name) and Anna are very excited to learn more about the gospel! We've had some appointments with them and they are progressing very well. Elias had previously read the Book of Mormon quite a bit so he is already off to a great start! We had Anna commit to reading over Joseph Smith history and have her teach us for that following lesson. It worked out great and she explained it so well!! She also joined in on our branch zoom call yesterday and she received a very warm welcome to all the members! Anna couldn't stop smiling and that was very heartwarming! Both Elias and Anna were referrals we received. Anna was a referral from Colombia! Her daughter who is living there was actually the one who sent in her information. And Elias had requested a copy of the Book of Mormon online so that went to us since he is in our area! He has an interesting background. He claimed to have fought battles on hills for his religion back in the middle east as a kid. I mean actual battles, full on armor and swords. He is from the middle east and he speaks Arabic, French, and Spanish! It's crazy because Spanish is actually his third language and he speaks it like a native! He wants to learn English too. We are hoping to put a date down with Anna soon, which actually might be harder than we think for reasons that don't have to do with Anna. That leads me into talking about our mission situation. Baptisms are now done on request first. The virus is absolutely chaotic here. We first need special permission from president Pingree to have a baptism. He would usually okay it but it varies with the situation and how old the investigator is. There are many different reasons why a baptism cannot yet be approved. I'm assuming that they need to do a medical history check on the investigator to know that they wouldn't be at any high risk of serious harm if they get the virus. I'm not too worried about anything though since both our mission president and another senior elder are doctors with over like 30 years of experience. They know what they're doing so all is well!! Also our mission only has about four baptisms a week so it's not like these requests are piling in.

   The mission is now at about 250 missionaries with more coming in soon! It sounds like the mission will eventually have just less than 300. That's intense! 

   I'll explain what is generally going on here... Right now south Florida is about the worst spot in the world regarding the virus. The report we received last night was that our area jumped by about 15,000 new cases. So we are still locked up unless we have reason to be out such as shopping, visiting places on pdays, being at the chapel, or really anything that doesn't have to do with being out just to be out.  Side note- our mission is one of the missions that allows fishing so our zone leaders invited us to go with them early this morning at 5:20. We went before anyone else so that was great. It was the first time I got to see a sunrise on the east coast ocean!!!  So things like that are alright to do, SO FAR. Hopefully it doesn't go any further than the restrictions we already have. For me, a normal day looks like any other day that we would have without the virus. It's just that all the proselyting and meetings are done online with Facebook or receiving referrals. We have our normal morning routine with planning, studying, finding, and doing any lessons we might have scheduled that day. Plus extra studying or reading if we would like. We have lots of stuff like the entire missionary library, Gospel Principles, Saints V2, Teachings of Prophets, Blueprints of Christ's Church, Knowing the Why of The Book of Mormon, and a few other things. They are all incredible and very insightful! Then there might be some other things we do like zoom calls for meetings or devotionals as a mission. None of them are done in person anymore. Each district/zone meetings are done over zoom. Even our interviews with president Pingree are done by zoom calls haha. And now it looks like official sacrament meetings on Sunday will be done by zoom call. It will no longer just be a simple get-together. We will still do the sacrament separate though. 

   I love being out here! Some missionaries might feel quite limited but it's really just as limited as you make it for yourself. There are numberless people to find online and in the area book! It's funny because this work is a little tougher than how it was back in Mexico. Not the physical labor, just the finding and getting people to talk to you. It's easier for the people to reject you when it's over a screen and not in person. I really enjoy the challenge though and staying busy is never a problem. It's going to be like this for a while but we continue to pray that the better will come sooner than later! It's just so awesome to be around during this time, I have no other way of putting it.

Take care!
-Elder Markham   

Wednesday, July 8, 2020

It's been a blast! July 6, 2020

Family and friends, 

   This week was quick despite still being locked up! I hope you all had a great fourth of July! We couldn't really do anything different. We did hear fireworks going off during the day! 

  This last week was a bit more eventful so I'll begin with talking about our zone conference. It was in person but we all had to sit six feet apart and wear masks. And as you know, we received our NEW MISSION PRESIDENT AND HIS WIFE!!! They are both so great! I love them so much already! President Pingree is a nose, ear, and throat doctor. Him and sister Pingree were previously living in Colorado for about 28 years. For a while they were actually serving there in the mission presidency! All of their children are married and have kids. It was so wonderful to learn about their children from a video where they introduced themselves. They also shared some things about president and sister Pingree. Later, the two of them spoke to us and talked more about their background like how they met, what med. school was like, things they like to do and just lots of great details! They are both pretty similar. President Pingree is a lot more vocal though. And he is very active and loves to teach by using interactive activities or something that excites the audience. For example, he put together a little skit with the assistants where he had them wear a jersey having the names 'Garns' and 'Pingree' on the back representing president Garns and president Pingree. President Pingree acted as a news reporter who was interviewing these two teammates for a big race. And he had one of the runners hand off the baton to the next which represented the handing off of priesthood keys and other duties that come with being a mission president. It was a lot of fun to watch! He is much more of an extrovert than sister Pingree and it seems like she really holds him down haha. Sister Pingree has that same loving care that any wife of a mission president has which is very distinct from any other of loving-type characteristic. She is very kind and thoughtful. One of her attributes that stands out the most is her perseverance. That was something that most of her kids shared about her. She is also very in tune with the Spirit and president Pingree actually joked about how he sometimes has to pull her down by her feet when she starts floating to heaven. They both have a wonderful and refreshing sense of humor. There were a couple things that president Pingree shared in the zone conference that stood out most. One of them was about how the gospel is about second chances. He says how he has been called out here to serve with us and he explained that he didn't know any of us before. President Garns didn't even share anything about what the missionaries were like, and he did that for a specific reason which was so we can give our first impression on our own. President Pingree says that as far as he knows, we were perfect to him because of the lack of knowledge he had about us. Because of that, it was like a second chance to show what we are capable of without having any sort of set expectations. Of course they looked over lists and things to know our names, see our pictures, and find out where we came from. But he was referring to what we are like. It is a very positive and hopeful perspective to have. So the zone conference was lots of fun! I think the most eventful day was when we had to move. We are no longer in the hotel! We had an emergency swap with the sisters in the Silver Lakes house. Story time!! So there I was, it was Saturday night and elder Enz and I had already settled in bed. We received a call at about 11:00pm and we were told to be prepared to swap living spaces with the sisters the next Monday (today). We went back to bed thinking about what we will need to do with the area if we even do need to change things. We didn't know if it would be permanent. We woke up the next morning and I told elder Enz that we should start packing immediately because I thought that we might get another call telling us that we needed to move as soon as possible and sure enough we did. But we had a few more calls to make and we had to coordinate with the sisters what was going on. They ended up not being able to get out until later in the afternoon. So we met up with the other elders in the hotel to help them out because they were going with us since there were four sisters, so each companionship gets a room. By the time everything was done it was getting to be in the evening. And during hurricane season we get tropical storms most evenings but this one we had was especially brutal. It's odd because the rain comes down in sideways-waterfall-form but it is still hot and humid outside. Plus there is lightning flashing and it is very loud. It is one of those that is just a crack then boom rather than rolling thunder in the distance. Wind is at a very high speed so it's just chaos. The moment you step outside you're already soaking wet! So we had that going on while we were moving. The sisters have TONS of things so we made a couple trips to get their stuff to the hotel. We eventually finished everything close to 8:00pm so we finally had our dinner and a zone call. It was nice to get dry and go to bed after a long day. The house is really nice! We are the first elders to stay in it so it's in good shape and it smells nice haha. It has a very tall ceiling and lots of open space. The hotel was nice but this is even better!! 

   That's enough excitement to last a while! Now I just want to share a message about the Atonement and what it means to me. 

   There is always so much to learn about the Savior's sacrifice He made for us. One of the things regarding it that I think about often has to do with why it is necessary and just how it helps individuals in their lives as well as mine. It is incredible to understand just how necessary the Atonement is. We know that we need it in order to improve our lives, and yet, it always goes much deeper and it has a more profound impact the more we think about it. I have heard countless individuals ask, especially in the mission, "If Heavenly Father loves His children so much then why does he allow so much suffering?" Or maybe the question is along the lines of, "If there is a God then why would He allow these bad things to happen?" I know we've all heard it at some point. I think it is a very reasonable question but it makes me sad each time I hear it. I know it also makes our Heavenly Father sad because He wishes those who ask such questions could understand. There is a God and He does love each of us very dearly. He knows us by name and He knows what we suffer and He knows how to help. He knows what we need and desire most. He never abandons us. There are different reasons why suffering and opposition in this life are necessary to our salvation. And there are different kinds of suffering in this life. That being by inconvenience and by sin. Inconvenience meaning sickness, actions of others, death of a loved one, physical/mental/emotional pain, and so on. Some of these things are just consequences of living in mortality. It is a consequence of the fall of Adam and Eve that we live in this mortal state. We are subject to such things like sickness and pain. It is what we enter into when we are born into the world. Because of our mortal bodies, we can get sick and feel physical pain or be very sad from a loved one passing away. That is just what we are bound by in these imperfect bodies. It is not our Heavenly Father doing this to us. It is the pattern of life that often takes a toll on the souls living in it. Amongst the intense pain, we can find pure joy and happiness in the restored gospel and learning about the Plan of Salvation. We can learn how to access the Atonement to use in our lives. That is what frees us from these pains. As we enter in the fold of God, we open ourselves up to receiving the Spirit which is our Heavenly Father's comforter that He sends. Jesus Christ suffered for the sins of the world as well as the pains of inconvenience. Because of that, we can find comfort. But when we reject our Father in Heaven by blaming Him or denying His existence, we close ourselves off to receiving the help and mercy that He offers. Healing is often a complicated and lengthy process. I think that it needs to be slow in order for us to grow more. If it were too fast, we would miss so many learning opportunities. We would not become stronger. We wouldn't be stronger for the next obstacles we face in life. It is true that when we fall, we come back stronger. But that is only if we do come back. Becoming stronger is what the Lord meant when He said in 1 Nephi 20:10, "For, behold, I have refined thee, I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction." Metal cannot be molded and refined instantly. It takes time just as we sometimes sit in the furnace of affliction to be refined and made stronger. The Lord's timing is perfect and it is important to rely on His wisdom by staying on the covenant path and enduring to the end. Sometimes people do not find the comfort until they are brought out of this life to meet their maker. Many live their lives in war and sickness. But they stay good people and are given mercy and are rewarded accordingly as they pass onto the other side. We must remember what the prophets have said about everything being made right at the last day. We do not need to worry because we can find comfort in the Lord's mercy by His Atonement. Getting over sin is explained differently. We find comfort by seeking forgiveness through the Savior's Atonement. He suffered so that we don't have to. But when we do not allow the Atonement to work in our lives, we bring consequences and punishment upon ourselves. One of my favorite quotes by Richard G. Scott is from when he gave his talk, Personal Strength through the Atonement of Jesus Christ. In it he said, "The joyful news for anyone who desires to be rid of the consequences of past poor choices is that the Lord sees weaknesses differently than He does rebellion. Whereas the Lord warns that unrepented rebellion will bring punishment, when the Lord speaks of weaknesses, it is always with mercy." I love that and it shows hope for those desiring forgiveness. It is the struggle through hard challenges that shows the Lord you still care. Nothing ever justifies evil actions, the Lord says that He cannot look upon sin with the least degree of allowance. Therefore we must repent and turn away from sin. If necessary, we seek help from the Lord's divinely appointed leaders. If there were no suffering then there would be no learning. We must know the difficult to know the easy. We must understand what is wrong to choose the right. It is different when talking about sin. We do not need to sin to know that it is wrong. We do not need to steal to know that it is wrong.  After everything is said and explained, it is important to understand that Heavenly Father's plan would be frustrated if suffering were taken out of life. That is why the adversary and his followers were cast to the earth and are allowed in our presence so that they tempt us. That allows us to use our agency for good. They are part of the reason bad things happen and why we sin. But we are still held responsible for our actions according to our accountability which is determined by the Lord. The reason why Heavenly Father's plan would be frustrated is because suffering is the reason He created the plan. He wants more than anything for us to return to Him and become like Him. From the very beginning, He knew the timeline and each detail, big or small, of what would happen in all our lives. That is a lot especially considering the amount of those who have lived, is living, and has yet to live. After knowing what would happen with each one of His children, He made and presented the perfect plan that allows us to choose for ourselves. Before Lucifer rebelled, Heavenly Father knew He would and so, in His infinite wisdom and knowledge, He planned accordingly. He knew that because of that first rebellion, there would later be suffering. So Heavenly Father created this plan as a means of getting through the suffering that is inevitable. We then shouted for joy and agreed to be placed here. We do not remember this because of the veil and because of our mortal state, not being able to understand such heavenly things. We are bound by time. It is as if each of us place glasses in front of our eyes that makes everything fuzzy and makes it so that we can only see a little bit in front of us. The glasses are our mortal state. I hope now that those who did not understand the reason behind suffering can see that progression would stop if opposition was simply taken away. This is what Lehi meant in 2 Nephi 2:11-12 when he said, "11) For it must needs be, that there is an opposition in all things. If not so, my firstborn in the wilderness, righteousness could not be brought to pass, neither wickedness, neither holiness nor misery, neither good nor bad. Wherefore, all things must needs be a compound in one; wherefore, if it should be one body it must needs remain as dead, having no life neither death, nor corruption nor incorruption, happiness nor misery, neither sense nor insensibility. 12)Wherefore, it must needs have been created for a thing of naught; wherefore there would have been no purpose in the end of its creation. Wherefore, this thing must needs destroy the wisdom of God and his eternal purposes, and also the power, and the mercy, and the justice of God."  And D&C 130:20-21 explains receiving blessings by obedience. It says,, "There is a law, irrevocably decreed in heaven before the foundations of this world, upon which all blessings are predicated—
21) And when we obtain any blessing from God, it is by obedience to that law upon which it is predicated." Mercy and comfort are blessings. That is why we must forsake sin and obey to receive those blessings.
 
   The Atonement is the greatest act of mercy and love. I assume that the question may come up about how comfort and mercy could be available to those who lived during times of apostasy when the fullness of the gospel was not on the earth. I don't think I have a reasonable answer for that but I would say that it might have to do with the fact that anyone searching for truth or comfort could have prayed just as Joseph Smith did. It's just that no one did it until Joseph Smith did. Anyone who had a heavy soul, just as Joseph Smith, could have cried out. But there have been many that were never aware that they could do so. That is why Joseph received the revelation that "all who have died without a knowledge of this gospel, who would have received it if they had been permitted to tarry, shall be heirs of the celestial kingdom of God."(D&C 137:7) That is a godly balance brought forth by our Heavenly Father offering mercy.

   This is quite a long email and I wanted to get more into some things about forgiveness but that will need to wait for next week. I'm so very thankful for each of you and the support you give! 

Take Care!
-Elder Markham